Breaking point

At the verge of  breaking down.

This, here, this space seems like the only way to express how I felt. Emotions, emotional. Yes. Been there, done that and............. still am. Could use a dozen of sleeping pills but fuck that shit. I will rather sleep forever. Been lost for so long, I forget where or how to seek for shelter. How to start all over again. It seems that you're moving on without me completely fine. Should I be happy or should I be upset? I don't know but it sure do hurts. Was dining at this place, where we first dine at. Maybe you can't even remember it but I do. That was how it all started, isn't it? There is when we first dine and there is where we started seeing each other and slowly it leads us to getting together. And all I can think of is you. Nothing but you.............God, what am I thinking? It's useless for memories to flash back. So shut it. Shall update again tonight cause I bet I will cry myself to sleep again. 

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