What went wrong, what made you go? I was blind, such a fool. Thinking we were unbreakable. Was it something that I said? Was it something that I did? Cause I gotta know what made you go. I've been told what's done is done. To let it go and carry on. Deep inside I know that's true but I'm stuck in time, stuck on you. Sometimes when I miss you. I put those records on. Don't leave me in all this pain. Don't leave me out in the rain. Come back and bring back my smile. Come and take these tears away. I need your arms to hold me now. The nights are so unkind. Bring back those nights when I held you beside me.
Say you'll love me again. Undo this hurt you caused. When you walked out the door. And walked out of my life. Un-cry these tears. I cried so many nights. Take back that sad word good-bye. Bring back the joy to my life. Don't leave me here with these tears. Come and kiss this pain away. I can't forget the day you left. Time is so unkind. And life is so cruel without you here beside me.
Without you I just can't go on.
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Date : 13th June. Time : 12.00am. At this very moment, it mark the 14th days we have been apart. 2 weeks since you have been gone. 2 weekends without you and the 3rd lonely weekend is about to come. It seems to me like as though a year or maybe longer time have passed. Time is really dragging itself. So is the pain. Every seconds, every minutes seems to punch the pain into my already shattered broken heart. I wonder how have you been. Did you miss me as much as I do or have you got over me already. Spend countless sleepless night thinking of you. And waking up the very next day with you still in my mind. Fighting the urge to talk to you, to text you, to call you, to see you, to hug you, to feel your warmth again. To lie on your chest or shoulder and drift to sleep. Missing everything that seems to familiar to me. Yet so different now. Walking the very same path we used to walk, going places where we used to go. That heart aching feeling when I look beside me and you wasn't there. You are gone, like the wind. Disappear in a flash. Looking out, searching for your shadow. Turning my back to see if you are there. Hoping you will pop by and I can see your face again. Staring at every single motorcyclists riding past. Hoping that I can bump into you. To see you again. Even the sound of the bike engines hurts so bad. Looking at the cute little pink helmet you got me just brought tears to my eyes. It was used every weekends with you but now? It have been left there, alone. For so long. Untouched. Just like me. Been so upset lately. Health and mood have been weak and weaker. No matter what I do or go, you are always in my mind. Your whatsapp last seen kills. Any update from you kills. The photos of us kills even more. How am I suppose to let go of someone I have put my everything in for? Pain can change someone so badly, so dramatically. I forget who I am. Who I used to be. Loving you make me blind. So blind. All I can think, all I can love is only you. Sure. Everyone says it take time. Everyone says it take one to replace another. But it isn't for me. No one can replace you, not in my heart. When I love, I can only love one. Even though we are no longer together but that doesn't means my feelings, my love have stop for you. To me, you are still my love. My boyfriend. The love of my life. Even though I can't call you mine anymore. To me, I am still attached. Deeply attached to you and I can't see anyone else but you. Stupid as it seems. Blinded as I may be. I'm loving that one person I can't be with and that is you.
And I still do.
In another life, I would be your girl. We keep all our promises. Be us against the world.
In another life, I would make you stay.
Have been singing this almost everyday and this make me tears each and every single time.
I could have hate you but I know I can't because I love youso.
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