Time doesn't necessary heal. Instead, it conceal.

Day 2 of Part 11 of 12 chapters or should i say it is Day 3 instead. Time check, 3.59am in the wee midnight or rather early morning is when I started to pin down my thoughts. Demon fighting their war, every night. Monsters hiding in every corner and I have been avoiding them all. There are certain things that I couldn't find a conclusion and are forced to live with it. There are certain things I have been seeking for an answer, an explanation. The more i dig into in, the harder i climb out. The urge is overwhelming. The thirst for the truth. The whole total truth. The lust to search for the brutal truth. Even though what you know might kill you, the drive within yourself to jump into it is intense. What would i gain, i ask myself. Nothing. Bruised, shattered and broken is what the truth will do to you sweetheart. After all, the lies have been drowning. Pulling you down when all you want is to inhale that little hint of air. It's not much of a life i am living. Been trying my very best to be alright, to be positive because nobody like a negative bitch. Tested and proven. Not sure if i am bottling shits up or i've been trying to ignore like as if it never exists. Either way, it definitely feels way better than to be down and broken hearted 24/7. It just hurts that much when the nights fall and when you started to realise you ain't alright after all. That is when mind fuck play a part. On a better note, i am very much contended to have everything i have now. I might lose everything in a blink of an eye. I might have to start from the scratch, i might have to climb from the bottom again. It might hurt, it might torn me apart. But nevertheless, i still have my family and that is what matters the most i guess. They are the best damn thing i ever have and can ever love. They might be a pain in the ass most of the time but i will never ever trade them with anything else in this world. They are what i would say, what money can't buy. I love them so so much, words can't even do justice. I've been through hell, back and forth. But boy, ain't i glad to have them and that they are with me side by side. It's not gonna be a easy fight but i will give my all to stand up again. After all, life goes on right?

- // Revamped my layout and bg of this little space. It definitely looks so so so much better. Florals, who would dislike pretty flowers right? :)

Oh yeah, did a new banner too. Pretty typical but simple enough for me to place it right here so yup.

Have been listening to this on a repeat, beautiful ain't it?

With love,

Stephanie