You are my fucking best friend. Yeah, a fuck up one. 

Indeed. Fuck you.

Hi, I'm back with another emotional blah blah blah shit post. Skip this entry if you like. Whatever. I don't care. But then again, why are you on my page? Okay blah. Mood haven't been good recently. Since when have it been good before? Even so, I won't be posting it here. Mixed up feelings, I guess.

Will you be friend with someone who isn't worthy of your friendship/kindness?
Someone who doesn't treat you like a friend? Someone who took you for granted?
Someone who make use of you? Someone who just don't give a fuck?
Someone who only find you when needed. Someone who can treat you like shit?
Will you?

I won't.

But I don't know why didn't I heed the advice's given by my friends about this particular person. I mean the actions and all already been so clear. Right at my face. Slap me across my face. Right in front of me. Just there, for me to see. But I stupidly believe in friendship. I believe in true friendship. I stupidly believe if I treat someone good, that person will appreciate it and treat me good too. I believe in give and take. But not in such case. It's more giving than I could take. How many times have I been upset and mad over something shitty like that? Countless times. To think, I still treat people well. Look at what I got at the end of the day. Believe it or not, I cried countless times because of this issue. No doubt it bothers me. It bothers me a lot. Why? Because I care, that so simple. I know very clearly that I shouldn't let this person or this issue bothers me. But fuck it, it still does. And I am trying not to let it get over me. I learn how to be selfish. How not to treat someone good. In this harsh reality, one doesn't pay to be kind and who knows? People might just go behind my back and talk bad about me. Some might even stab me when my guards are down. What is there to believe? Who is there to trust? Fake friends everywhere. Even those's you never thought might be just one of them. 

I am sorry but you don't deserve my respect. Neither do I deserve a friend like you. Yeah, it's so crystal clear why you don't belong. Why I should stop hanging out with you. No doubt it gonna be tough at first but I believe I will be all good in time. So go ahead, replace me. Find someone to be your sidekick. I know clearly who will that person be. After all, birds of a feather flock together. All I can say is, who you hang out with is who you are. I'll be here, right here waiting and watching you fall. Just so you know, what goes around comes around. And no, I won't be there when you fall. Simply because when I fall, you wasn't even there. 

My last move is to unfriend you.


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I shall end this post with something to cheer myself up.
Actually not, it's just a gif of me acting cute. MUHAHAHAH! ～(^з^)-☆ღ

Till next time.

xoxo