When I miss you, I put these records on. 

0508 ; this day, this month is your special day. For me, every 5th of every month used to mean everything to me. But this month of August on this day is double special for me. One is for you and another is for someone else. Both completely different person can mean something to me so so much today. The similar thing is both of you belong in the past. In my past. History. Just someone I used to know. One is years ago, 4 years ago maybe? Another one is just months ago. Everything happen so fast and time really flies. People come and go. But for me, memories stay. Memories lingers. And for that, I only want to keep the happy memories we once shared. Because I am contended that I once held it so close, so dearly to me.




1406 ; First of all, I know you won't be reading this but I still wanna wish you a very happy bird day. Though I am not by your side but I know you will be pretty alright. Hopefully you enjoy your special day with someone special or rather, just enjoy yourself. I once promise you, I will never forget you. Trust me, I won't. Though we don't talk anymore but still, I miss you. I miss your smell, your smile and the way you hold me.


These days turn to weeks, these weeks turn to months.
Thought I couldn't want you, more than I did before, but everyday I love you a little bit more. 


I will never forget that special moment when our eyes laid on each other. The connection we had. The desire to get close to each other. The way you move close to me. The way you touch. The way we dance. The way you want me to be yours. The way you look at me and the way your lips taste.


I love you, I really did. Trust me, I love you wholeheartedly. 


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0501 ; There's pretty nothing much to say. After so many years, dozen of hu-ha and one big round, I'm glad we are still friends. Though I really want to hate you but I can't bring myself to. After all, you were once someone so important to me. Either way, I miss how we used to be. I miss us. I miss you and when I say I miss you, I mean the old you. But I know, the old you is already long gone and will never come back. Therefore, all I keep now is nothing but our happy memories together and for that, thank you. Thank you for the memories and for all those years together. I will never forget you or our memories. I wish you all the best. In everything and anything at all. And hopefully, you would find someone who will treat you right.


We were in love, we were young. We were madly in love. 
But love was never build to last.




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I can't help but cry a river when I blog about this.
Maybe, its just any other emotional night. 
Guess my pillow will be all soaked with tears tonight, just like any other night.

xoxo