Don't we all love in vain?
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Just a couples of some camwhore shots of me, myself and I @ event work today. Nothing much. Pretty easy job. So yeah, easy money for me. The auntie there is nice though I'm not heading back tomorrow so well... On the another note, hair colour really been fading to brown like madness and god, I really hate brown tone now. Sick of it actually. Maybe I should get it touch up before my bird day. Thinking of having ombre hair actually but am very unwilling to bleach my hair. It will definitely dry and frizz my hair like mad so I can only think of having it but not actually doing it. Confusing huh. Blah.
And this is me before heading to bath with my hair tied up in a bun. Kinda addicted to bun my hair up recently. Keep my hair off my neck, my shoulder and my face.
Words can't express how much I dislike my chubby face. Or rather baby face/fats or whatsoever you guys called it. Whatever. I just hate it. Make my face look so round and puffy puff up like fishball, beef ball, pork ball. Like WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF! But I'm born with it so I have to learn how to embrace it (blah blah blah) unless I go under the knife and shape my face shape. Sharp chin, damn. Me want!
Dress code for work today : OOTD
Rather simple. White top, Black skirt, Black & Gold bucket wedges/pump :)
Have no idea why my legs look so short and fat here but wait, it is what. *stab myself*
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Now playing : 只能勇敢 (repeat mode)
I wanted to just end this post rather randomly and head to bed. But I know I can't sleep and my mind won't just shut down so well. I got loads to say but then I don't know how to express it. I've been listening to this almost every night for months now. I will like to share with you guys. Its a really nice song. Maybe by hearing the lyrics, you might know what I have always been trying to say/express so here you go :
Chinese lyrics :
从很早就明白 我讨厌孤单
就算是谈情感 有许多麻烦
也还是很向往 爱的人来作伴
太冲动的结果反而一片混乱
更心酸 更孤单
失恋过才明白 相处有多难
谁粗心谁敏感 谁体贴谁独断
谁说出了期盼 谁觉得是批判
当争吵都变成冷战也让情感 被切断
我只能勇敢 学习 释然
把情人的泪还有责备 全部承担
从不习惯 对曾经炽热的爱情 分手就冷淡
我只能勇敢 顺其 自然
谁叫我 对於真爱那麽期盼
不想要 关住了自己 安全但却太黑暗
幸福过才明白 要永恒多梦幻
这一秒的美好 下一刻就暗淡
问再多为什麽 也不会有答案
但心里很清楚以後有更多无解 的遗憾
我只能勇敢 学习 释然
把离别的苦思念的酸 都看淡
人总要习惯 生命就是一站一站
不断在转换
我只能勇敢 顺其 自然
谁叫我 宁愿浪漫不要平淡
不投入盛大烟火表演 没有危险但也不灿烂
不怕 爱情 苦乐都 极端
And if you can't read/understand Chinese really well.
I've found the English Translation for you all :)
From the very start i already understood how much i hate loneliness
Even if there are many troubles with relationships
Still really yearn for a loved one as a companion
The result of an impulse became chaotic instead
Even more heartache, even more loneliness
After experiencing a failed relationship, will understand how difficult it is to get along
Who is careless, who is sensitive, who is considerate, who is arbitrary
Who said out their anticipations, who thinks it's criticizing
When arguments all became a cold war, it also allows emotions to be cut off
I can only be brave, learn to set free
Take responsibility for all the lover's tears and blames
Was never used to being cold after a break-up from a once passionate love
I can only be brave, let it be
Can only blame myself for anticipating true love so much
Don't want to lock myself up, it's safe but too dark
After experiencing happiness, will understand how unrealistic it is to want eternity
The loveliness in this second becomes dim in the next
No matter how many "whys" you ask, there won't be an answer
But inside your heart you clearly know, there will be more regrets in the future without any solutions
I can only be brave, learn to set free
To regard lightly the bitterness when parting and the aches from yearning
People have to get used to it, life is one stage after another
changing non-stop
I can only be brave, let it be
Can only blame myself to rather have romantic over plain and ordinary
Don't throw a grand fireworks display, there's no danger but it's not splendid either
Not afraid of the extremity of both love and bittersweet
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So now tell me, who can feel/understand my pain?
This is the heartache I tried my best to avoid every single night.
Xoxo
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